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This reading is from The Hashish Eater, or Passages from the Life of a Pythagorean,

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by Fitzhugh Ludlow, published in 1857 by Harper & Brothers, New York.

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This was the first of the American hashish exposés, and many feel the best.

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And what I'm going to read this morning, out of a very rich potential group of readings,

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is Fitzhugh Ludlow's description of his first encounter with the power of cannabis.

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So I begin the reading partway through the chapter called The Night Entrance.

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One morning, in the spring of 1850-something, I dropped in upon the doctor for my accustomed lounge.

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Have you seen, said he, my new acquisitions?

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I looked toward the shelves in the direction of which he pointed,

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and saw, added since my last visit, a row of comely pasteboard cylinders

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enclosing vials of the various extracts prepared by Tilden and Company,

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Arranged in order according to their size, they confronted me,

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as pretty a rank of medicinal sharpshooters as could gratify the eye of an amateur.

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I approached the shelves that I might take them in review.

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A rapid glance showed most of them to be old acquaintances,

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Conium, Taraxacum, Rhubarb.

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Ha! What is this, Cannabis Indica?

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That, answered the doctor, looking with a parental fondness upon his new treasure,

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is a preparation of the East Indian Hemp, a powerful agent in cases of lockjaw.

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On the strength of this introduction, I took down the little archer,

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and, removing his outer verdant coat, began the further prosecution of his acquaintance.

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To pull out a broad and shallow cork was the work of an instant,

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and it revealed to me an olive-brown extract of the consistency of pitch

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and a decided aromatic odor.

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Drawing out a small portion upon the point of my penknife,

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I was just going to put it to my tongue when,

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Hold on! cried the doctor.

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Do you want to kill yourself?

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That stuff is deadly poison.

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Indeed, I replied, no, I cannot say that I have any settled determination of that kind,

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and with that I replaced the cork and restored the extract

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with all its appurtenances to the shelf.

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The remainder of my morning's visit in the sanctum

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was spent consulting the dispensatory under the title Cannabis Indica.

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The sum of my discoveries there may be found,

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with much additional information,

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in that invaluable popular work,

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Johnston's Chemistry of Common Life.

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This being universally accessible,

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I will allude no further to the result of that morning's researches

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than to mention the three following conclusions to which I came.

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First, the doctor was both right and wrong.

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Right, inasmuch as a sufficiently large dose of the drug,

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if it could be retained in the stomach,

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would produce death, like any other narcotic,

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and the ultimate effect of its habitual use

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had always proved highly injurious to mind and body.

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Wrong, since moderate doses of it were never immediately deadly,

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and many millions of people daily employed it

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as an indulgence similarly to opium.

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Second, it was the hashish referred to by Eastern travelers

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and the subject of a most graphic chapter from the pen of Bayard Taylor,

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which months before had moved me powerfully to curiosity and admiration.

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Third, I would add it to the list of my former experiences.

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In pursuance of this last determination,

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I waited till my friend was out of sight,

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that I might not terrify him by that which he considered a suicidal venture,

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and then, quickly uncapping my little archer a second time,

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removed from his store of offensive armor,

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a pill sufficient to balance the ten-grain weight of the sanctorial scales.

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This, upon the authority of Pereira and the dispensatory,

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I swallowed without a tremor as to the danger of the result.

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Making all due allowance for the fact

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that I had not taken my hashish bolus fasting,

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I ought to experience its effects within the next four hours.

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That time elapsed without bringing the shadow of a phenomenon.

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It was plain that my dose had been insufficient.

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For the sake of observing the most conservative prudence,

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I suffered several days to go by

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without a repetition of the experiment,

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and then, keeping the matter equally secret,

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I administered to myself a pill of fifteen grains.

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This second was equally ineffectual with the first.

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Gradually, by five grains at a time,

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I increased the dose to thirty grains,

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which I took one evening, half an hour after tea.

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I had now almost come to the conclusion

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that I was absolutely unsusceptible of the hashish influence.

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Without any expectation that this last experiment

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would be more successful than the former ones,

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and indeed, with no realization of the manner

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in which the drug affected those

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who did make the experiment successfully,

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I went to pass the evening

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at the house of an intimate friend.

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In music and conversation,

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the time passed pleasantly.

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The clock struck ten,

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reminding me that three hours had elapsed

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since the dose was taken,

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and as yet not an unusual symptom had appeared.

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I was provoked to think that this trial

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was as fruitless as its predecessors.

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Ah, what mean is this sudden thrill?

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A shock as of some unimagined vital force

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shoots without warning through my entire frame,

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leaping to my fingers' ends,

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piercing my brain,

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startling me till I almost spring from my chair.

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I could not doubt it.

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I was in the power of the hashish influence.

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My first emotion was one of uncontrollable terror,

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a sense of getting something

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which I had not bargained for.

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That moment I would have given all I had

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or hoped to have

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to be as I was three hours before.

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No pain anywhere,

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not a twinge in any fiber,

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yet a cloud of unutterable strangeness

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was settling upon me

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and wrapping me impenetrably in

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from all that was natural or familiar.

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Endeared faces well known to me of old

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surrounded me,

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and yet they were not with me in my loneliness.

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I had entered upon a tremendous life

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which they could not share.

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If the disembodied ever returned

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to hover over the hearthstone

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which once had a seat for them,

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they look upon their friends

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as I then looked upon mine,

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a nearness of place

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with an infinite distance of state,

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a connection which had no possible sympathies

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for the wants of that hour of revelation,

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an isolation,

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none the less perfect for seeming companionship.

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Still, I spoke.

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A question was put to me,

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and I answered it.

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I even laughed at an own name.

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It was not my voice which spoke,

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perhaps one which I once had far away

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in another time and another place.

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For a while,

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I knew nothing that was going on externally,

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and then the remembrance of the last remark

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which had been made

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returned slowly and indistinctly

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as some trait of a dream will return

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after many days,

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puzzling us to say

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where we have been conscious of it before.

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A fitful wind all the evening

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had been sighing down the chimney.

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Now it grew into the steady hum

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of a vast wheel in accelerating motion.

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For a while,

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this hum seemed to resound through all space.

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I was stunned by it.

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I was absorbed in it.

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Slowly,

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the revolution of the wheel came to a stop,

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and its monotonous din was changed

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for the reverberating peal

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of a grand cathedral organ.

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The ebb and flow

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of its inconceivably solemn tone

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filled me with a grief

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that was more than human.

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I sympathized with the dirge-like cadence

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as spirit sympathizes with spirit,

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and then,

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in the full conviction

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that all I heard and felt was real,

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I looked out of my isolation

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to see the effect of the music

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on my friends.

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Ah,

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we were in separate worlds indeed,

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not a trace of appreciation

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on any face.

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Perhaps I was acting strangely.

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Suddenly,

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a pair of busy hands

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which had been running

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neck and neck

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all the evening

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with a nimble little crochet needle

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over a race ground

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of pink and blue silk

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stopped at their goal,

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and their owner

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looked at me steadfastly.

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Ah,

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I was found out.

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I had betrayed myself.

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In terror,

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I waited,

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expecting every instant

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to hear the word

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hashish.

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No,

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the lady only asked me

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some question

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connected with the previous conversation.

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As mechanically

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as an automaton,

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I began to reply.

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As I heard once more

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the alien and unreal tones

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of my own voice,

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I became convinced

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that it was someone else

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who spoke,

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and in another world.

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I sat and listened.

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Still,

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the voice kept speaking.

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Now,

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for the first time,

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I experienced

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the vast change

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which hashish makes

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in all measurements of time.

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The first word of the reply

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occupied a period

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sufficient for the action

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of a drama.

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The last left me

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in complete ignorance

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of any point

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far enough back

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in the past

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to date the commencement

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of the sentence.

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Its enunciation

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might have occupied years.

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I was not

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in the same life

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which had held me

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when I heard it begun.

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And now,

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with time,

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space expanded also.

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At my friend's house,

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one particular armchair

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was always reserved

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for me.

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I was sitting in it

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at a distance

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of hardly three feet

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from the center table

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around which the members

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of the family

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were grouped.

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Rapidly,

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that distance widened.

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The whole atmosphere

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seemed ductile

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and spun endlessly out

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into great spaces

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surrounding me

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on every side.

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We were in a vast hall

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of which my friends

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and I occupied

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opposite extremities.

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The ceiling

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and the walls

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ran upward

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with a gliding motion

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as if vivified

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by a sudden force

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of resistless growth.

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Oh,

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I could not bear it.

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I should soon

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be left alone

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in the midst

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of an infinity

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of space.

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And now,

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more and more,

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every moment

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increased the conviction

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that I was watched.

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I did not know then

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as I learned afterwards

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that suspicion

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of all earthly things

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and persons

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was the characteristic

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of the hashish delirium.

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In the midst

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of my complicated

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hallucination,

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I could perceive

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that I had

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a dual existence.

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One portion of me

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was whirled

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unresistingly

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along the track

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of this tremendous

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experience.

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The other

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sat looking down

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from a height

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upon its double,

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observing,

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reasoning,

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and serenely weighing

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all the phenomena.

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This calmer being

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suffered with the other

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by sympathy

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but did not lose

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its self-possession.

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Presently,

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it warned me

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that I must go home

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lest the growing effect

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of the hashish

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should incite me

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to some act

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which might frighten

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my friends.

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I acknowledged

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the force of this remark

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very much

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as if it had been made

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by another person

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and rose to take my leave.

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I advanced

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toward the center table.

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With every step

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its distance increased,

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I nerved myself

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as for a long

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pedestrian journey.

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Still,

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the lights,

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the faces,

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the furniture receded.

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At last,

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almost unconsciously,

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I reached them.

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It would be tedious

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to attempt

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to convey

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the idea

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of the time

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which my leave-taking

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consumed

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and the attempt,

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at least with all minds

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that have not passed

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through the same experience,

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it would be

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as impossible

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as tedious.

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At last,

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however,

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I was in the street.

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Beyond me,

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the view

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stretched endlessly away.

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It was an unconverging vista

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whose nearest lamp

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seemed separated

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from me

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by leagues.

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I was doomed

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to pass

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through a merciless

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stretch of space.

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A soul

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just disenthralled

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setting out

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for his flight

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beyond the furthest

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visible star

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could not be

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more overwhelmed

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with his newly

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acquired conception

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of the sublimity

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of distance

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than I was

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at that moment.

13:48.710 --> 13:49.430
Solemnly,

13:49.830 --> 13:50.730
I began

13:50.730 --> 13:52.130
my input.

13:54.840 --> 13:55.520
Before long,

13:55.640 --> 13:56.160
I walked

13:56.160 --> 13:56.960
in entire

13:56.960 --> 13:58.040
unconsciousness

13:58.040 --> 13:59.220
of all around me.

13:59.700 --> 14:00.420
I dwelt

14:00.420 --> 14:01.300
in a marvelous

14:01.300 --> 14:02.260
inner world.

14:02.260 --> 14:03.440
I existed

14:03.440 --> 14:04.220
by turns

14:04.220 --> 14:05.440
in different places

14:05.440 --> 14:06.100
and various

14:06.100 --> 14:06.940
states of being.

14:07.660 --> 14:08.680
Now I swept

14:08.680 --> 14:09.540
my gondola

14:09.540 --> 14:10.080
through the

14:10.080 --> 14:10.540
moonlit

14:10.540 --> 14:11.180
lagoons

14:11.180 --> 14:12.000
of Venice.

14:12.520 --> 14:12.880
Now,

14:13.040 --> 14:14.220
Alp on Alp

14:14.220 --> 14:14.900
towered

14:14.900 --> 14:15.880
above my view

14:15.880 --> 14:16.740
and the glory

14:16.740 --> 14:18.000
of the coming sun

14:18.000 --> 14:19.480
flashed purple light

14:19.480 --> 14:20.600
upon the topmost

14:20.600 --> 14:21.640
icy pinnacle.

14:22.320 --> 14:22.780
Now,

14:22.940 --> 14:23.840
in the primeval

14:23.840 --> 14:24.380
silence

14:24.380 --> 14:24.980
of some

14:24.980 --> 14:25.660
unexplored

14:25.660 --> 14:26.780
tropical forest,

14:26.900 --> 14:27.460
I spread

14:27.460 --> 14:28.820
my feathery leaves,

14:28.960 --> 14:30.140
a giant fern,

14:30.140 --> 14:31.680
and swayed

14:31.680 --> 14:32.580
and nodded

14:32.580 --> 14:33.420
in the spice

14:33.420 --> 14:34.080
gales

14:34.080 --> 14:35.300
over a river

14:35.300 --> 14:36.320
whose waves

14:36.320 --> 14:36.940
at once

14:36.940 --> 14:37.860
sent out

14:37.860 --> 14:39.420
clouds of music

14:39.420 --> 14:40.660
and perfume.

14:41.500 --> 14:42.400
My soul

14:42.400 --> 14:43.080
changed

14:43.080 --> 14:43.980
to a vegetable

14:43.980 --> 14:44.640
essence.

14:45.300 --> 14:45.780
Thrilled

14:45.780 --> 14:46.820
with a strange

14:46.820 --> 14:47.940
and unimaginable

14:47.940 --> 14:48.680
ecstasy,

14:49.160 --> 14:49.760
the palace

14:49.760 --> 14:51.060
of Al-Haroom

14:51.060 --> 14:51.820
could not have

14:51.820 --> 14:52.620
brought me back

14:52.620 --> 14:53.400
to humanity.

14:54.520 --> 14:55.560
I will not

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detail all the

14:56.440 --> 14:57.320
transmutations

14:57.320 --> 14:58.200
of that walk.

14:58.680 --> 14:59.760
Ever and anon

14:59.760 --> 15:00.520
I returned

15:00.520 --> 15:01.480
from my dreams

15:01.480 --> 15:02.420
into consciousness

15:02.420 --> 15:03.600
as some

15:03.600 --> 15:04.620
well-known house

15:04.620 --> 15:05.420
seemed to leap

15:05.420 --> 15:06.680
out into my path,

15:07.020 --> 15:07.760
awakening me

15:07.760 --> 15:08.600
with a shock.

15:09.060 --> 15:09.840
The whole way

15:09.840 --> 15:10.420
homeward

15:10.420 --> 15:11.180
was a series

15:11.180 --> 15:12.560
of such awakenings

15:12.560 --> 15:13.600
and relapses

15:13.600 --> 15:14.560
into abstraction

15:14.560 --> 15:15.620
and delirium

15:15.620 --> 15:16.820
until I reached

15:16.820 --> 15:17.300
the corner

15:17.300 --> 15:18.140
of the street

15:18.140 --> 15:19.340
in which I lived.

15:20.620 --> 15:21.000
Here,

15:21.380 --> 15:22.400
a new phenomenon

15:22.400 --> 15:23.920
manifested itself.

15:24.580 --> 15:25.300
I had just

15:25.300 --> 15:25.720
awakened

15:25.720 --> 15:26.320
for perhaps

15:26.320 --> 15:27.320
the twentieth time

15:27.320 --> 15:28.120
and my eyes

15:28.120 --> 15:29.060
were wide open.

15:29.060 --> 15:30.400
I recognized

15:30.400 --> 15:31.420
all surrounding

15:31.420 --> 15:31.900
objects

15:31.900 --> 15:32.540
and began

15:32.540 --> 15:33.300
calculating

15:33.300 --> 15:34.100
the distance

15:34.100 --> 15:34.600
home.

15:35.520 --> 15:35.860
Suddenly,

15:36.060 --> 15:36.700
out of a blank

15:36.700 --> 15:37.500
wall at my

15:37.500 --> 15:38.000
side,

15:38.300 --> 15:38.900
a muffled

15:38.900 --> 15:39.900
figure stepped

15:39.900 --> 15:40.700
into the path

15:40.700 --> 15:41.420
before me.

15:41.820 --> 15:42.420
His hair,

15:42.600 --> 15:43.620
white as snow,

15:44.040 --> 15:45.140
hung in tangled

15:45.140 --> 15:45.860
elf locks

15:45.860 --> 15:46.800
on his shoulders

15:46.800 --> 15:48.040
where he carried

15:48.040 --> 15:49.100
also a heavy

15:49.100 --> 15:49.560
burden,

15:50.080 --> 15:50.660
like unto

15:50.660 --> 15:51.480
the well-filled

15:51.480 --> 15:52.640
sack of sins

15:52.640 --> 15:53.500
which Bunyan

15:53.500 --> 15:54.460
places on the

15:54.460 --> 15:55.060
back of his

15:55.060 --> 15:55.580
pilgrim.

15:55.580 --> 15:58.520
not liking his

15:58.520 --> 15:58.920
manner,

15:59.120 --> 16:00.020
I stepped aside

16:00.020 --> 16:00.720
intending to

16:00.720 --> 16:01.520
pass around him

16:01.520 --> 16:02.280
and go on my

16:02.280 --> 16:02.660
way.

16:03.300 --> 16:04.000
This change

16:04.000 --> 16:04.620
of our relative

16:04.620 --> 16:05.620
position allowed

16:05.620 --> 16:06.700
the blaze of a

16:06.700 --> 16:07.480
neighboring street

16:07.480 --> 16:08.300
light to fall

16:08.300 --> 16:09.600
full on his face

16:09.600 --> 16:10.020
which had

16:10.020 --> 16:10.760
hitherto been

16:10.760 --> 16:12.040
totally obscured.

16:12.780 --> 16:13.280
Horror

16:13.280 --> 16:14.620
unspeakable!

16:15.320 --> 16:16.220
I shall never

16:16.220 --> 16:17.280
till the day

16:17.280 --> 16:18.020
I die

16:18.020 --> 16:19.100
forget that

16:19.100 --> 16:19.800
face.

16:21.880 --> 16:22.560
Every

16:22.560 --> 16:23.120
liniment

16:23.120 --> 16:24.040
was stamped

16:24.040 --> 16:24.480
with the

16:24.480 --> 16:25.240
records of a

16:25.240 --> 16:26.120
life black

16:26.120 --> 16:26.920
with damning

16:26.920 --> 16:27.520
crime.

16:28.040 --> 16:28.640
It glared

16:28.640 --> 16:29.280
upon me

16:29.280 --> 16:29.640
with a

16:29.640 --> 16:30.220
ferocious

16:30.220 --> 16:31.060
wickedness

16:31.060 --> 16:31.460
and a

16:31.460 --> 16:31.920
stony

16:31.920 --> 16:32.680
despair

16:32.680 --> 16:33.640
which only

16:33.640 --> 16:34.260
he may

16:34.260 --> 16:34.780
feel

16:34.780 --> 16:35.200
who is

16:35.200 --> 16:35.600
entering

16:35.600 --> 16:36.060
on the

16:36.060 --> 16:36.780
retribution

16:36.780 --> 16:37.400
of the

16:37.400 --> 16:38.440
unpardonable

16:38.440 --> 16:38.960
sin.

16:39.600 --> 16:40.140
He might

16:40.140 --> 16:40.740
have sat

16:40.740 --> 16:41.140
to a

16:41.140 --> 16:41.420
demon

16:41.420 --> 16:41.960
painter

16:41.960 --> 16:42.440
as the

16:42.440 --> 16:43.000
ideal

16:43.000 --> 16:43.240
of

16:43.240 --> 16:43.880
Shelley's

16:43.880 --> 16:44.400
senchi.

16:45.000 --> 16:45.620
I seemed

16:45.620 --> 16:46.040
to grow

16:46.040 --> 16:46.920
blasphemous

16:46.920 --> 16:47.360
in looking

16:47.360 --> 16:47.900
at him

16:47.900 --> 16:48.700
and in

16:48.700 --> 16:49.260
an agony

16:49.260 --> 16:49.920
of fear

16:49.920 --> 16:50.680
began

16:50.680 --> 16:51.180
to run

16:51.180 --> 16:51.520
away.

16:52.180 --> 16:52.800
He detained

16:52.800 --> 16:53.560
me with a

16:53.560 --> 16:54.540
bony hand

16:54.540 --> 16:55.300
which pierced

16:55.300 --> 16:55.960
my wrist

16:55.960 --> 16:56.800
like talons

16:56.800 --> 16:58.200
and slowly

16:58.200 --> 16:59.120
taking down

16:59.120 --> 16:59.680
the burden

16:59.680 --> 17:00.200
from his

17:00.200 --> 17:01.280
own shoulders

17:01.280 --> 17:02.180
laid it

17:02.180 --> 17:03.200
upon mine.

17:03.700 --> 17:04.220
I threw

17:04.220 --> 17:04.680
it off

17:04.680 --> 17:05.140
and pushed

17:05.140 --> 17:05.700
him away.

17:06.280 --> 17:06.740
Silently

17:06.740 --> 17:07.480
he returned

17:07.480 --> 17:08.360
and restored

17:08.360 --> 17:08.820
the weight.

17:08.980 --> 17:09.460
Again I

17:09.460 --> 17:10.180
repulsed him

17:10.180 --> 17:10.700
this time

17:10.700 --> 17:11.460
crying out

17:11.460 --> 17:12.120
man

17:12.120 --> 17:12.780
what do

17:12.780 --> 17:13.240
you mean?

17:14.020 --> 17:14.640
In a voice

17:14.640 --> 17:15.400
which impressed

17:15.400 --> 17:16.160
me with the

17:16.160 --> 17:16.800
sense of

17:16.800 --> 17:17.380
wickedness

17:17.380 --> 17:17.760
as his

17:17.760 --> 17:18.180
face

17:18.180 --> 17:18.760
had done

17:18.760 --> 17:19.540
he replied

17:19.540 --> 17:21.440
you shall

17:21.440 --> 17:22.140
bear

17:22.140 --> 17:25.790
and a third

17:25.790 --> 17:26.490
time laid

17:26.490 --> 17:27.010
it on my

17:27.010 --> 17:27.510
shoulders.

17:28.070 --> 17:28.290
For the

17:28.290 --> 17:28.990
last time

17:28.990 --> 17:29.610
I hurled

17:29.610 --> 17:30.170
it aside

17:30.170 --> 17:30.670
and with

17:30.670 --> 17:31.090
all my

17:31.090 --> 17:31.490
force

17:31.490 --> 17:32.150
dashed

17:32.150 --> 17:32.570
him from

17:32.570 --> 17:32.830
me.

17:33.250 --> 17:33.690
He reeled

17:33.690 --> 17:34.110
backward

17:34.110 --> 17:34.730
and fell

17:34.730 --> 17:35.470
and before

17:35.470 --> 17:35.830
he could

17:35.830 --> 17:36.250
recover

17:36.250 --> 17:36.470
his

17:36.470 --> 17:37.130
disadvantage

17:37.130 --> 17:37.950
I had

17:37.950 --> 17:38.390
put a

17:38.390 --> 17:38.630
long

17:38.630 --> 17:39.110
distance

17:39.110 --> 17:39.530
between

17:39.530 --> 17:39.930
us.

17:40.610 --> 17:40.770
Through

17:40.770 --> 17:40.970
the

17:40.970 --> 17:41.430
excitement

17:41.430 --> 17:41.870
of my

17:41.870 --> 17:42.330
struggle

17:42.330 --> 17:42.830
with this

17:42.830 --> 17:43.510
phantasm

17:43.510 --> 17:44.130
the effects

17:44.130 --> 17:44.410
of the

17:44.410 --> 17:44.870
hashish

17:44.870 --> 17:45.630
had increased

17:45.630 --> 17:46.310
mightily.

17:46.770 --> 17:47.250
I was

17:47.250 --> 17:47.870
bursting

17:47.870 --> 17:48.270
with an

17:48.270 --> 17:49.210
uncontrollable

17:49.210 --> 17:49.750
life.

17:50.130 --> 17:50.790
I strode

17:50.790 --> 17:51.250
with the

17:51.250 --> 17:51.830
fuse of

17:51.830 --> 17:52.510
a giant.

17:52.910 --> 17:53.330
Hotter

17:53.330 --> 17:54.090
and faster

17:54.090 --> 17:54.750
came my

17:54.750 --> 17:55.150
breath.

17:55.510 --> 17:55.950
I seemed

17:55.950 --> 17:56.570
to pant

17:56.570 --> 17:57.130
like some

17:57.130 --> 17:57.710
tremendous

17:57.710 --> 17:58.370
engine.

17:58.790 --> 17:59.370
An electric

17:59.370 --> 18:00.070
energy

18:00.070 --> 18:01.010
whirled me

18:01.010 --> 18:01.910
resistlessly

18:01.910 --> 18:02.930
onward.

18:03.430 --> 18:04.090
I feared for

18:04.090 --> 18:04.590
myself

18:04.590 --> 18:04.910
at least

18:04.910 --> 18:05.210
it should

18:05.210 --> 18:05.590
burst

18:05.590 --> 18:05.830
its

18:05.830 --> 18:06.250
fleshy

18:06.250 --> 18:06.730
walls

18:06.730 --> 18:07.050
and

18:07.050 --> 18:07.590
glance

18:07.590 --> 18:07.990
on

18:07.990 --> 18:08.310
leave

18:08.310 --> 18:08.590
a

18:08.590 --> 18:08.890
wreck

18:08.890 --> 18:09.210
of

18:09.210 --> 18:09.850
framework

18:09.850 --> 18:10.370
behind

18:10.370 --> 18:10.710
it.

18:11.390 --> 18:11.590
At

18:11.590 --> 18:12.050
last

18:12.050 --> 18:12.730
I

18:12.730 --> 18:13.010
entered

18:13.010 --> 18:13.270
my

18:13.270 --> 18:13.530
own

18:13.530 --> 18:14.050
house.

18:14.590 --> 18:14.770
During

18:14.770 --> 18:15.070
my

18:15.070 --> 18:15.490
absence

18:15.490 --> 18:15.770
a

18:15.770 --> 18:16.090
family

18:16.090 --> 18:16.650
connection

18:16.650 --> 18:17.050
had

18:17.050 --> 18:17.550
arrived

18:17.550 --> 18:17.830
from

18:17.830 --> 18:18.250
abroad

18:18.250 --> 18:18.890
and

18:18.890 --> 18:19.190
stood

18:19.190 --> 18:19.530
ready

18:19.530 --> 18:19.770
to

18:19.770 --> 18:20.170
receive

18:20.170 --> 18:20.470
my

18:20.470 --> 18:20.930
greeting.

18:21.510 --> 18:21.970
Partly

18:21.970 --> 18:22.530
restored

18:22.530 --> 18:22.750
to

18:22.750 --> 18:23.270
consciousness

18:23.270 --> 18:23.770
by the

18:23.770 --> 18:24.490
naturalness

18:24.490 --> 18:25.230
of home

18:25.230 --> 18:25.750
faces

18:25.750 --> 18:26.110
and

18:34.590 --> 18:35.310
with

18:35.310 --> 18:35.450
an

18:35.450 --> 18:35.930
intense

18:35.930 --> 18:36.410
effort

18:36.410 --> 18:37.050
suppressing

18:37.050 --> 18:37.590
all I

18:37.590 --> 18:37.990
felt

18:37.990 --> 18:38.510
I

18:38.510 --> 18:38.990
approached

18:38.990 --> 18:39.270
my

18:39.270 --> 18:39.630
friend

18:39.630 --> 18:39.870
and

18:39.870 --> 18:40.130
said

18:40.130 --> 18:40.390
all

18:40.390 --> 18:40.650
that

18:40.650 --> 18:40.870
is

18:40.870 --> 18:41.330
usual

18:41.330 --> 18:41.690
on

18:41.690 --> 18:41.990
such

18:41.990 --> 18:42.570
occasions.

18:43.450 --> 18:43.670
Yet

18:43.670 --> 18:44.310
recent

18:44.310 --> 18:44.710
as I

18:44.710 --> 18:44.990
was

18:44.990 --> 18:45.190
from

18:45.190 --> 18:45.430
my

18:45.430 --> 18:45.950
conflict

18:45.950 --> 18:46.270
with

18:46.270 --> 18:46.450
the

18:46.450 --> 18:47.010
supernatural

18:47.010 --> 18:47.650
I

18:47.650 --> 18:48.090
cast

18:48.090 --> 18:48.330
a

18:48.330 --> 18:48.790
stealthy

18:48.790 --> 18:48.990
look

18:48.990 --> 18:49.330
about

18:49.330 --> 18:49.570
me

18:49.570 --> 18:50.010
that

18:50.010 --> 18:50.170
I

18:50.170 --> 18:50.430
might

18:50.430 --> 18:50.670
learn

18:50.670 --> 18:50.870
from

18:50.870 --> 18:51.030
the

18:51.030 --> 18:51.330
faces

18:51.330 --> 18:51.570
of

18:51.570 --> 18:51.850
others

18:51.850 --> 18:52.230
if

18:52.230 --> 18:52.790
after

18:52.790 --> 18:53.170
all

18:53.170 --> 18:53.530
I

18:53.530 --> 18:53.710
was

18:53.710 --> 18:54.010
shaking

18:54.010 --> 18:54.370
hands

18:54.370 --> 18:54.550
with

18:54.550 --> 18:54.750
a

18:54.750 --> 18:55.170
phantom

18:55.170 --> 18:55.630
and

18:55.630 --> 18:55.930
making

18:55.930 --> 18:56.570
inquiries

18:56.570 --> 18:56.870
about

18:56.870 --> 18:57.110
the

18:57.110 --> 18:57.390
health

18:57.390 --> 18:57.570
of

18:57.570 --> 18:57.710
a

19:04.590 --> 19:05.230
salutation

19:05.230 --> 19:05.830
and sat

19:05.830 --> 19:06.350
down

19:06.350 --> 19:07.470
it

19:07.470 --> 19:07.750
soon

19:07.750 --> 19:08.230
required

19:08.230 --> 19:08.590
all

19:08.590 --> 19:08.850
my

19:08.850 --> 19:09.410
resolution

19:09.410 --> 19:09.770
to

19:09.770 --> 19:09.990
keep

19:09.990 --> 19:10.210
the

19:10.210 --> 19:10.550
secret

19:10.550 --> 19:10.810
which

19:10.810 --> 19:10.970
I

19:10.970 --> 19:11.170
had

19:11.170 --> 19:11.630
determined

19:11.630 --> 19:11.930
to

19:11.930 --> 19:12.330
hold

19:12.330 --> 19:13.150
inviolable

19:13.150 --> 19:13.790
my

19:13.790 --> 19:14.430
sensations

19:14.430 --> 19:14.950
began

19:14.950 --> 19:15.330
to be

19:15.330 --> 19:15.770
terrific

19:15.770 --> 19:16.530
not

19:16.530 --> 19:16.770
from

19:16.770 --> 19:16.970
any

19:16.970 --> 19:17.370
pain

19:17.370 --> 19:17.550
that

19:17.550 --> 19:17.730
I

19:17.730 --> 19:18.090
felt

19:18.090 --> 19:18.310
but

19:18.310 --> 19:18.510
from

19:18.510 --> 19:18.690
the

19:18.690 --> 19:19.250
tremendous

19:19.250 --> 19:19.970
mystery

19:19.970 --> 19:20.270
of

19:20.270 --> 19:20.530
all

19:20.530 --> 19:20.970
around

19:20.970 --> 19:21.250
me

19:21.250 --> 19:21.650
and

19:21.650 --> 19:22.030
within

19:22.030 --> 19:22.390
me

19:22.390 --> 19:23.110
by

19:23.110 --> 19:23.290
an

19:23.290 --> 19:23.810
appalling

19:23.810 --> 19:24.590
introversion

19:24.590 --> 19:25.190
all

19:25.190 --> 19:25.390
the

19:25.390 --> 19:25.950
operations

19:25.950 --> 19:26.230
of

19:26.230 --> 19:26.970
vitality

19:26.970 --> 19:27.350
which

19:27.350 --> 19:27.550
in

19:27.550 --> 19:27.750
our

19:27.750 --> 19:28.250
ordinary

19:28.250 --> 19:28.870
state

19:28.870 --> 19:29.190
go

19:29.190 --> 19:29.490
on

19:29.490 --> 19:30.510
unconsciously

19:30.510 --> 19:31.250
came

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vividly

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into

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my

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every

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thinnest

19:35.550 --> 19:36.410
corporeal

19:36.410 --> 19:36.850
tissue

19:36.850 --> 19:37.170
and

19:37.170 --> 19:37.890
minutest

19:37.890 --> 19:38.310
vein

19:38.310 --> 19:38.650
I

19:38.650 --> 19:38.870
could

19:38.870 --> 19:39.290
see

19:39.290 --> 19:39.590
the

19:39.590 --> 19:40.050
circulation

19:40.050 --> 19:40.530
of

19:40.530 --> 19:40.670
the

19:40.670 --> 19:41.030
blood

19:41.030 --> 19:41.430
along

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each

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inch

19:42.310 --> 19:42.490
of

19:42.490 --> 19:42.630
its

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progress

19:43.310 --> 19:44.010
I

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knew

19:44.350 --> 19:44.650
when

19:44.650 --> 19:45.090
every

19:45.090 --> 19:45.510
valve

19:45.510 --> 19:46.010
opened

19:46.010 --> 19:46.490
and

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when

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it

19:46.870 --> 19:47.270
shut

19:47.270 --> 19:48.090
every

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sense

19:48.670 --> 19:48.890
was

19:48.890 --> 19:49.170
pretty

19:49.170 --> 19:49.870
naturally

19:49.870 --> 19:50.450
awakened

19:50.450 --> 19:51.170
the

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room

19:51.530 --> 19:51.770
was

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full

19:52.190 --> 19:52.370
of

19:52.370 --> 19:52.490
a

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great

19:52.830 --> 19:53.450
glory

19:53.450 --> 19:54.150
the

19:54.150 --> 19:54.570
beating

19:54.570 --> 19:54.810
of

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my

19:55.050 --> 19:55.470
heart

19:55.470 --> 19:55.750
was

19:55.750 --> 19:56.130
so

19:56.130 --> 19:56.670
clearly

19:56.670 --> 19:57.210
audible

19:57.210 --> 19:57.790
that

19:57.790 --> 19:57.950
I

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wondered

19:58.370 --> 19:58.650
to

19:58.650 --> 19:58.990
find

19:58.990 --> 19:59.190
it

19:59.190 --> 19:59.950
unnoticed

19:59.950 --> 20:00.190
by

20:04.590 --> 20:04.910
became

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a

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great

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fountain

20:06.050 --> 20:06.450
whose

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jet

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played

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upward

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with

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loud

20:08.530 --> 20:09.270
vibrations

20:09.270 --> 20:10.230
and a

20:10.230 --> 20:10.690
striking

20:10.690 --> 20:11.070
upon

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the

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roof

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of

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my

20:11.870 --> 20:12.450
skull

20:12.450 --> 20:12.710
as

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on

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a

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gigantic

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dome

20:14.250 --> 20:15.050
fell

20:15.050 --> 20:15.470
back

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with a

20:15.870 --> 20:16.430
splash

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and

20:16.670 --> 20:17.090
echo

20:17.090 --> 20:17.510
into

20:17.510 --> 20:17.750
its

20:17.750 --> 20:18.450
reservoir

20:18.450 --> 20:19.470
faster

20:19.470 --> 20:20.190
and faster

20:20.190 --> 20:20.570
came

20:20.570 --> 20:20.730
the

20:20.730 --> 20:21.430
pulsations

20:21.430 --> 20:21.970
until

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at last

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I heard

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them

20:23.210 --> 20:23.910
no more

20:23.910 --> 20:24.390
and the

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stream

20:24.810 --> 20:25.310
became

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one

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continuously

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pouring

20:27.190 --> 20:27.890
flood

20:27.890 --> 20:28.570
whose

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roar

20:29.210 --> 20:30.110
resounded

20:30.110 --> 20:30.770
through all

20:30.770 --> 20:31.030
my

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frame

20:31.610 --> 20:32.550
I gave

20:32.550 --> 20:32.950
myself

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off

20:33.230 --> 20:33.350
the

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rest

20:33.870 --> 20:34.590
since

20:34.590 --> 20:35.070
judgment

20:35.070 --> 20:35.610
which

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still

20:35.970 --> 20:36.370
sat

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unimpaired

20:37.010 --> 20:37.410
above

20:37.410 --> 20:37.670
my

20:37.670 --> 20:38.150
perverted

20:38.150 --> 20:38.750
senses

20:38.750 --> 20:39.510
argued

20:39.510 --> 20:39.810
that

20:39.810 --> 20:40.410
congestion

20:40.410 --> 20:40.790
must

20:40.790 --> 20:41.010
take

20:41.010 --> 20:41.390
place

20:41.390 --> 20:41.690
in a

20:41.690 --> 20:41.850
few

20:41.850 --> 20:42.370
moments

20:42.370 --> 20:42.590
and

20:42.590 --> 20:43.050
closed

20:43.050 --> 20:43.270
the

20:43.270 --> 20:43.590
drama

20:43.590 --> 20:43.890
with

20:43.890 --> 20:44.130
my

20:44.130 --> 20:44.650
death

20:44.650 --> 20:45.450
but

20:45.450 --> 20:45.710
my

20:45.710 --> 20:46.110
clutch

20:46.110 --> 20:46.350
would

20:46.350 --> 20:46.670
not

20:46.670 --> 20:47.170
yet

20:47.170 --> 20:47.710
relax

20:47.710 --> 20:47.990
from

20:47.990 --> 20:48.410
hope

20:48.410 --> 20:48.970
the

20:48.970 --> 20:49.270
thought

20:49.270 --> 20:49.690
struck

20:49.690 --> 20:50.010
me

20:50.010 --> 20:50.690
might

20:50.690 --> 20:50.970
not

20:50.970 --> 20:51.250
this

20:51.250 --> 20:51.850
rapidity

20:51.850 --> 20:52.030
of

20:52.030 --> 20:52.670
circulation

20:52.670 --> 20:53.050
be

20:53.050 --> 20:53.450
after

20:53.450 --> 20:53.810
all

20:53.810 --> 20:54.730
imaginary

20:54.730 --> 20:55.450
I

20:55.450 --> 20:55.950
determined

20:55.950 --> 20:56.230
to

20:56.230 --> 20:56.530
find

20:56.530 --> 20:56.930
out

20:56.930 --> 20:58.510
going

20:58.510 --> 20:58.950
to my

20:58.950 --> 20:59.190
own

20:59.190 --> 20:59.530
room

20:59.530 --> 20:59.810
I

20:59.810 --> 21:00.030
took

21:00.030 --> 21:00.230
out

21:00.230 --> 21:00.450
my

21:00.450 --> 21:00.830
watch

21:00.830 --> 21:01.030
and

21:01.030 --> 21:01.350
placed

21:01.350 --> 21:01.630
my

21:01.630 --> 21:01.910
hand

21:01.910 --> 21:02.190
upon

21:02.190 --> 21:02.430
my

21:02.430 --> 21:02.850
heart

21:02.850 --> 21:03.490
the

21:03.490 --> 21:03.770
very

21:03.770 --> 21:04.150
effort

21:04.150 --> 21:04.410
which

21:04.410 --> 21:04.550
I

21:04.550 --> 21:04.850
made

21:04.850 --> 21:05.050
to

21:05.050 --> 21:05.690
ascertain

21:05.690 --> 21:05.910
the

21:05.910 --> 21:06.450
reality

21:06.450 --> 21:07.130
gradually

21:07.130 --> 21:07.530
brought

21:07.530 --> 21:08.170
perception

21:08.170 --> 21:08.590
back

21:08.590 --> 21:08.770
to

21:08.770 --> 21:08.910
its

21:08.910 --> 21:09.230
normal

21:09.230 --> 21:09.750
state

21:09.750 --> 21:10.470
in

21:10.470 --> 21:10.610
the

21:10.610 --> 21:11.050
intensity

21:11.050 --> 21:11.330
of

21:11.330 --> 21:11.530
my

21:11.530 --> 21:12.130
observations

21:12.130 --> 21:12.530
I

21:12.530 --> 21:12.790
began

21:12.790 --> 21:13.030
to

21:13.030 --> 21:13.470
perceive

21:13.470 --> 21:13.730
that

21:13.730 --> 21:13.910
the

21:13.910 --> 21:14.330
circulation

21:14.330 --> 21:14.850
was

21:14.850 --> 21:15.150
not

21:15.150 --> 21:15.370
as

21:15.370 --> 21:15.690
rapid

21:15.690 --> 21:15.950
as

21:15.950 --> 21:16.110
I

21:16.110 --> 21:16.270
had

21:16.270 --> 21:16.670
thought

21:16.670 --> 21:17.310
from

21:17.310 --> 21:17.510
a

21:17.510 --> 21:18.050
pulseless

21:18.050 --> 21:18.450
flow

21:18.450 --> 21:18.670
it

21:18.670 --> 21:19.150
gradually

21:19.150 --> 21:19.550
came

21:19.550 --> 21:19.710
to

21:19.710 --> 21:19.870
be

21:19.870 --> 21:20.550
apprehended

21:20.550 --> 21:20.810
as

21:20.810 --> 21:20.970
a

21:20.970 --> 21:21.470
hurrying

21:21.470 --> 21:22.130
succession

21:22.130 --> 21:22.410
of

21:22.410 --> 21:22.870
intense

21:22.870 --> 21:23.530
throbs

21:23.530 --> 21:24.210
then

21:24.210 --> 21:24.590
less

21:24.590 --> 21:25.010
swift

21:25.010 --> 21:25.350
and

21:25.350 --> 21:25.650
less

21:25.650 --> 21:26.250
intense

21:26.250 --> 21:26.770
till

21:26.770 --> 21:27.290
finally

21:27.290 --> 21:27.650
on

21:27.650 --> 21:28.050
comparing

21:28.050 --> 21:28.270
it

21:28.270 --> 21:28.410
with

21:28.410 --> 21:28.570
the

21:28.570 --> 21:28.890
second

21:28.890 --> 21:29.310
hand

21:29.310 --> 21:29.850
I

21:29.850 --> 21:30.250
found

21:30.250 --> 21:30.450
that

21:30.450 --> 21:30.770
about

21:30.770 --> 21:31.250
ninety

21:31.250 --> 21:31.470
a

21:31.470 --> 21:31.690
minute

21:31.690 --> 21:31.990
was

21:31.990 --> 21:32.170
its

21:32.170 --> 21:32.530
average

21:32.530 --> 21:33.250
rapidity

21:33.250 --> 21:34.130
greatly

21:34.130 --> 21:34.810
comforted

21:34.810 --> 21:34.970
I

21:34.970 --> 21:35.490
desisted

21:35.490 --> 21:35.750
from

21:35.750 --> 21:35.910
the

21:35.910 --> 21:36.470
experiment

21:36.470 --> 21:37.330
almost

21:37.330 --> 21:37.850
instantly

21:37.850 --> 21:38.070
the

21:38.070 --> 21:38.770
hallucination

21:38.770 --> 21:39.410
returned

21:39.410 --> 21:40.290
again

21:40.290 --> 21:40.570
I

21:40.570 --> 21:41.090
dreaded

21:41.090 --> 21:42.010
apoplexy

21:42.010 --> 21:42.730
congestion

21:42.730 --> 21:43.590
hemorrhage

21:43.590 --> 21:43.970
and a

21:43.970 --> 21:44.770
multiplicity

21:44.770 --> 21:44.950
of

21:44.950 --> 21:45.510
nameless

21:45.510 --> 21:46.050
deaths

21:46.050 --> 21:46.590
and

21:46.590 --> 21:46.790
drew

21:46.790 --> 21:47.090
my

21:47.090 --> 21:47.530
picture

21:47.530 --> 21:48.110
as

21:48.110 --> 21:48.290
I

21:48.290 --> 21:48.590
might

21:48.590 --> 21:48.810
be

21:48.810 --> 21:49.170
found

21:49.170 --> 21:49.450
on

21:49.450 --> 21:49.630
the

21:49.630 --> 21:50.050
morrow

21:50.050 --> 21:50.750
stark

21:50.750 --> 21:51.010
and

21:51.010 --> 21:51.430
cold

21:51.430 --> 21:51.950
by

21:51.950 --> 21:52.290
those

21:52.290 --> 21:52.510
whose

21:52.510 --> 21:53.030
agony

21:53.030 --> 21:53.410
would

21:53.410 --> 21:53.770
be

21:53.770 --> 21:55.090
redoubted

21:55.090 --> 21:55.310
by

21:55.310 --> 21:55.510
the

21:55.510 --> 21:55.890
mystery

21:55.890 --> 21:56.090
of

21:56.090 --> 21:56.350
my

21:56.350 --> 21:56.750
end

21:56.750 --> 21:57.230
I

21:57.230 --> 21:57.810
reasoned

21:57.810 --> 21:57.910
with

21:57.910 --> 21:58.390
myself

21:58.390 --> 21:58.970
I

21:58.970 --> 21:59.390
bathed

21:59.390 --> 21:59.590
my

21:59.590 --> 22:00.050
forehead

22:00.050 --> 22:00.410
it

22:00.410 --> 22:00.610
did

22:00.610 --> 22:00.810
no

22:00.810 --> 22:01.190
good

22:01.190 --> 22:01.690
there

22:01.690 --> 22:01.850
was

22:01.850 --> 22:02.150
one

22:02.150 --> 22:02.690
resource

22:02.690 --> 22:03.230
left

22:03.230 --> 22:03.670
I

22:03.670 --> 22:03.830
would

22:03.830 --> 22:04.110
go

22:04.110 --> 22:04.330
to

22:04.330 --> 22:04.490
a

22:04.490 --> 22:04.930
physician

22:04.930 --> 22:05.910
with

22:05.910 --> 22:06.150
this

22:06.150 --> 22:06.570
resolve

22:06.570 --> 22:06.770
I

22:06.770 --> 22:06.990
left

22:06.990 --> 22:07.190
my

22:07.190 --> 22:07.450
room

22:07.450 --> 22:07.610
and

22:07.610 --> 22:07.770
went

22:07.770 --> 22:07.890
to

22:07.890 --> 22:07.990
the

22:07.990 --> 22:08.150
head

22:08.150 --> 22:08.270
of

22:08.270 --> 22:08.430
the

22:08.430 --> 22:08.810
staircase

22:08.810 --> 22:09.650
the

22:09.650 --> 22:09.970
family

22:09.970 --> 22:10.190
had

22:10.190 --> 22:10.450
all

22:10.450 --> 22:10.910
retired

22:10.910 --> 22:11.170
for

22:11.170 --> 22:11.310
the

22:11.310 --> 22:11.570
night

22:11.570 --> 22:11.710
and

22:11.710 --> 22:11.850
the

22:11.850 --> 22:12.190
gas

22:12.190 --> 22:12.370
was

22:12.370 --> 22:12.710
turned

22:12.710 --> 22:13.070
off

22:13.070 --> 22:13.290
from

22:13.290 --> 22:13.470
the

22:13.470 --> 22:13.750
burner

22:13.750 --> 22:13.970
in

22:13.970 --> 22:14.110
the

22:14.110 --> 22:14.330
hall

22:14.330 --> 22:14.770
below

22:14.770 --> 22:15.390
I

22:15.390 --> 22:15.630
looked

22:15.630 --> 22:15.910
down

22:15.910 --> 22:16.130
the

22:16.130 --> 22:16.650
stairs

22:16.650 --> 22:17.250
the

22:17.250 --> 22:17.670
depth

22:17.670 --> 22:17.950
was

22:17.950 --> 22:18.770
fathomless

22:18.770 --> 22:19.170
it

22:19.170 --> 22:19.310
was

22:19.310 --> 22:19.510
a

22:19.510 --> 22:19.830
journey

22:19.830 --> 22:20.070
of

22:20.070 --> 22:20.490
years

22:20.490 --> 22:20.750
to

22:20.750 --> 22:21.030
reach

22:21.030 --> 22:21.230
the

22:21.230 --> 22:21.590
bottom

22:21.590 --> 22:22.150
the

22:22.150 --> 22:22.430
dim

22:22.430 --> 22:22.750
light

22:22.750 --> 22:22.890
of

22:22.890 --> 22:23.050
the

22:23.050 --> 22:23.410
sky

22:23.410 --> 22:23.870
shone

22:23.870 --> 22:24.110
through

22:24.110 --> 22:24.290
the

22:24.290 --> 22:24.570
narrow

22:24.570 --> 22:25.110
panes

22:25.110 --> 22:25.270
at

22:25.270 --> 22:25.470
the

22:25.470 --> 22:25.790
sides

22:25.790 --> 22:25.950
of

22:25.950 --> 22:26.070
the

22:26.070 --> 22:26.330
front

22:26.330 --> 22:26.650
door

22:26.650 --> 22:27.050
and

22:27.050 --> 22:27.450
seemed

22:27.450 --> 22:27.650
a

22:27.650 --> 22:28.010
demon

22:28.010 --> 22:28.530
light

22:28.530 --> 22:28.710
in

22:28.710 --> 22:28.850
the

22:28.850 --> 22:29.030
middle

22:29.030 --> 22:29.550
darkness

22:29.550 --> 22:29.850
of

22:29.850 --> 22:29.970
the

22:29.970 --> 22:30.470
abyss

22:30.470 --> 22:30.990
I

22:30.990 --> 22:31.350
never

22:31.350 --> 22:31.650
could

22:31.650 --> 22:31.870
get

22:31.870 --> 22:32.390
down

22:32.390 --> 22:32.950
I

22:32.950 --> 22:33.350
sat

22:33.350 --> 22:33.530
me

22:33.530 --> 22:33.850
down

22:33.850 --> 22:34.770
despairingly

22:34.770 --> 22:35.110
upon

22:35.110 --> 22:35.350
the

22:35.350 --> 22:35.570
top

22:35.570 --> 22:35.870
most

22:35.870 --> 22:36.330
step

22:36.330 --> 22:37.210
suddenly

22:37.210 --> 22:37.470
a

22:37.470 --> 22:37.890
sublime

22:37.890 --> 22:38.330
thought

22:38.330 --> 22:38.850
possessed

22:38.850 --> 22:39.150
me

22:39.150 --> 22:39.810
if the

22:39.810 --> 22:40.270
distance

22:40.270 --> 22:40.550
be

22:40.550 --> 22:41.110
infinite

22:41.110 --> 22:41.910
I

22:41.910 --> 22:42.290
am

22:42.290 --> 22:42.850
immortal

22:42.850 --> 22:43.570
it

22:43.570 --> 22:44.030
shall

22:44.030 --> 22:44.310
be

22:44.310 --> 22:44.830
tried

22:44.830 --> 22:45.630
I

22:45.630 --> 22:46.050
commenced

22:46.050 --> 22:46.250
the

22:46.250 --> 22:46.730
descent

22:46.730 --> 22:47.530
wearily

22:47.530 --> 22:48.230
wearily

22:48.230 --> 22:48.790
down

22:48.790 --> 22:49.130
through

22:49.130 --> 22:49.430
my

22:49.430 --> 22:49.890
league

22:49.890 --> 22:50.310
long

22:50.310 --> 22:50.650
year

22:50.650 --> 22:51.050
long

22:51.050 --> 22:51.570
journey

22:51.570 --> 22:52.130
to

22:52.130 --> 22:52.530
record

22:52.530 --> 22:52.810
my

22:52.810 --> 22:53.330
impressions

22:53.330 --> 22:53.810
in that

22:53.810 --> 22:54.150
journey

22:54.150 --> 22:54.510
would be

22:54.510 --> 22:54.670
to

22:54.670 --> 22:54.990
repeat

22:54.990 --> 22:55.330
what I

22:55.330 --> 22:55.470
have

22:58.850 --> 22:59.210
as a

22:59.210 --> 22:59.610
traveler

22:59.610 --> 22:59.890
would

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turn

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toiling

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lonely

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darkness

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the

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street