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in a conversation here on the south coast of spain that began with my brother's appearance at

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rustler's retreat in south africa almost eight years ago in 1996. my point of view as a

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not a believer but an entertainer of time wave theory is life has become this weird

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confirming spectacle as i watch everything go on i'm asking questions nobody else i think could

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hardly imagine like you know is the reason her dress is cut that way because she is an echo of

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franklin the fat's wife angelina and similar quasi-schizoid ruminations

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in which

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what i'm always trying to do is see the echoes and i see people people come to me and stand in

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front of me and you know i see the flicker of blake or or the crooked smile of jefferson or

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the glinty gaze of sod and it all comes mixed together and then i find myself in situations

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which are rehearsals of other historical events and other

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people do this but they don't understand how it sounds to me like yesterday on our hike

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someone kept saying was it you was it you kept saying the tribe marches south or something like

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that echoing the great pilgrimages in the history of south africa right when various people moved

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south the great trek but then of course in american history there are many great treks

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and of course what is history but great treks on one level well so to the time wave informed mind

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this seemingly trivial remark is incredibly rich because in some way we are repeating

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the great trek everything becomes paradigmatic every action is somehow what it is

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but also the morphogenetic ghosts of other times and other places behind us the unknown

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before us the secret a human body incarnated in time is an extraordinary for understanding

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being and meaning and what i really am is sort of the front end of a gene swarm that is continually

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reassembling itself in different combinations and if you could see my son or my father

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you would see

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why my daughter was also cremated in the years до

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so how can you imagine how i am theme and variation on something larger than any individual

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that is spread through time the idea of the dao of the ancestors i think is simply that

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if you feel into your body like how you hold a machete how you mount a horse

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the best way for you to do that. That's the easiest way for you to do that

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because that's the Tao of the ancestors. And if you can feel the Tao of the

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ancestors in everything you do, how you hold a teacup, how you walk, how you talk,

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you become somehow connected into something more than yourself and you can

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draw a vitality and a strength from that. If you don't do things according to

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the Tao of the ancestors, then it's difficult. It's like pushing against the

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river. Your muscles, your eye, your mind wants to do things a certain way that

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is your heritage. And to yield to it is like suddenly to find the world

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made of mercury. Everything seems to work.

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as though it's superconducting. Sometimes you experience this on

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psychedelics. I think that's what the Tao is. It's tuning out the static of

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individual existence and planting yourself firmly in the in the

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morphogenetic field of your gene pool. And then things unfold very naturally

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and without stress. The distinction between adult and child is largely

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artificial.

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In other words, much of the world confuses me. Much of social situations,

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sexual dealings, drugs, I find myself wishing somebody had educated and

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explained it all to me. You don't ever suddenly understand, you know. We all

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carry with us into life blank spots in our understanding. So I consider myself at

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age 50.

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To be in a state of prolonged adolescence and ever learning and

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assimilating and passing on to young people, which is, I don't say child, I

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don't say adolescent, I say young people, whatever I know. And learning

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from them similarly to get to get connected up. My life is like science

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fiction. I feel, I don't know, the word trapped is slightly paranoid, but I

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feel enclosed within something like a Philip K. Dick novel. With the advice of

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Phil K. Dick, James and Nora Joyce are actually running my reality. I don't

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know about your reality. The tension in my personal life is I was an odd vessel

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for this job. I am an extremely rugose and

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lamented creature and double Scorpio and Catholic upbringing. And I see every

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situation from 15 points of view. And I can't get rid of it. I can't get rid of

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this. The complications in existence. And so what it's come down to for me is

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I've had to realize that it's very hard to do shamanic research and be a

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missionary.

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propaganda but so that's my dilemma how to do what I've been doing for years

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which is the only thing I understand is talking to people that sort of thing I

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would starve under a bridge if I couldn't do this because I'm too

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something for organizational or institutional life everything I am and

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have discussed with you and so forth was developed away from the public eye

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and the other thing is you know being a public figure is a really stupid thing

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to be it's you participate in some of the sleaziest and most tainted machinery

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of the culture and you see how people are manipulated you see what the cult

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of celebrity is and how people are invited to disempower themselves

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in its presence and it's it's as they say of sausage and foreign policy it's

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not something you should ever watch being made anyway that's it that's

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enough of that my function is is to sort of serve as a as an information

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information nexus for data on psychedelic plants and chemistry and

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narrative and

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to just sort of encourage people to explore their own minds and so forth and

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so on very weird very weird you know it's a circus from another dimension it's

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a traveling carnival from Zenebel Ganupi it's you know has implications

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that just raise the hair on the back of your neck if you let it sink in but it's

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all in good fun see it's zany take a spin ten chances

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for a dollar

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hurry hurry question me and deliver me from this rant